Origin of Twised Mind Creative

Recently I discovered that a number of you all didn’t realize that I was the one behind the Twisted Mind Creative link some of you all were sent an invite for, which prompted me to post on my main page inviting you all here. A while back I was also asked how I landed on the name Twisted Mind and I think now is a good enough time to try and explain why. Before we get into that, I’d like to mention the reasoning for the timing of this post; I have been fighting anxiety all my life and have recently discovered that I have probably been fighting depression for almost as long as well, and tonight is a rough night for me. I have accomplished exactly nothing since getting home from work and want to make something of this night, so here we go.

The very basis of the name comes from the fact that I view my mind as very twisted. I’m an overthinker, which I have recently discovered is the main source of my anxiety. There isn’t a scenario out there that I haven't thought of and I usually assume that the worst case scenario is going to play out. Thankfully nine times out of ten I’m wrong, but that still doesn’t stop me from thinking it anyways. I am a quiet person by nature and I’m sure I have come off as a little anti-social at times, but if you ask anybody I’m close to, they will tell you I’m capable of talking their ears off. No, I’m quiet because I am thinking constantly. My passion for writing was born of this since I had a hard time going to sleep most nights until I started creating a scene in my mind that I would play over and over again every night until the thought of writing it down came to me.

This in of itself does not really explain why I think my mind is twisted though. Just like the real world, my mind has some dark corners to it as well. I would love to invite someone to live in my head for one day to see just what flows through it. One story that I started writing that I just can’t bring myself to finish is about a man who wakes up only to find his own dead body in the living room. Not trusting the police to believe him, he tries to figure out how to dispose of the body all the while trying to stop a friend who unexpectedly stops by from discovering his situation. The story itself doesn’t seem too messed up until you find out it was born of a tragedy that happened right here in the town I live in. I practically scolded myself for being inspired by something truly horrific and to this day I cannot bring myself to finish that story. Now pair that with the fact that I have no interest in horror in the visual or written form unless there is comedy attached and tell me how that makes sense.

Speaking of visual and written media, I absolutely love a good versus evil story, especially a coming of age hero story or a hero's journey type story, usually in the fantasy genre. But the one genre I love to write in is the morally gray area of the anti-hero. There is just something about good triumphing over evil but with bloodshed and the occasional death of the truly evil that just piques my interest. I have a particular character I am purposely holding off on writing about anymore until I get better at my craft just so that I can give her the proper anti-hero representation she deserves.

On the flip side of that same coin, I also have opinions on day to day life that you all seem to resonate with more than the random writing challenge I am putting myself through here at the moment. I would be the last person to call myself philosophical but my articles about basic human ideals and views seem to be more popular than my fiction writing. Dark and broody on one side, light and uplifting on the other; What's more twisted than that? A lot of days I feel like the classic cartoons with the main character having a tiny angel on one shoulder and a tiny devil on the other, just in my case they are in my mind, constantly bickering back and forth with each other. In case you're wondering, the tiny angels' record for winning is vastly superior to the tiny devils. Now I could go on for the rest of the night explaining why I believe my mind to be twisted, but I’d like to think I painted a pretty good picture there to convince you. I didn’t choose the name because I thought it would be trendy or popular, I found it fairly accurate for the stuff I planned on sharing with you all and how accurately it describes myself.

With all that being said, if there is more you would like to hear or questions you may have, I would love to hear them and believe it or not, just typing this out actually helped me find a little bit of peace tonight. Take care and remember, it’s ok to have a twisted mind.